THE BIG PICTURE

I guess if I could always step back and see the whole of things, the whole of my life I would understand how beautifully everything was orchestrated and is still being orchestrated. All is and was as it should be. Even the stuff I didn't really want.

I was contemplating last night that as I look back on my life one thing has lead to the next and each one was vitally connected to the other to make up this thing called my life. I thought of how Ron was with me only seven years but that was long enough for us both to get what we needed and what we both were to do in that period of time. When he had accomplished all that he was supposed to with me and I with him, it was time for the next chapter for him and for me. I realized how true this is for all of us.

Right now, there are all kinds of wonderful things opening up to me so my work and experience here is not yet complete. I would still love to put things back as they were before Ron got sick and still have him here in the flesh with me; but, that cannot be and so I move forward each day with a little more joy and hopeful anticipation of each new day to see where the road now leads me. My writing is beginning to take off little by little and there are other opportunities now opening up for me if I but let go of what was and embrace now what is and what is to come.

Life is good. Ron used to say that a lot even when he was faced with fewer and fewer days in this life time. I join with him now in saying that life is indeed good and I give thanks for it.

And so it is