Dark Night of the Soul

I suppose there are periods in a person's life when as they develop or desire to develop further spiritually, that they find themselves in what St. John of the Cross called the "dark night of the soul".

I personally have reached at point where my soul is taking hold of me and causing me to revisit the call I heard so many years ago. I have some things to do: studying, praying, maybe some thinking, and surrendering to God and for the direction of good for my soul. I have reached an impasse, a rude awakening, a shaking up to the core that has caused me to sit up and take notice. I'm not sure what's up but I can recognize that there is another lesson or hurdle or stage or something that is coming up that right now that feels like the dark night but somehow will have at the finish what my soul has been directing me towards.

Every stage we go through, every major life change, offers an opportunity for reaching higher consciousness and drawing closer to our soul's purpose. Right now, it doesn't feel very good but after beseeching and knocking and asking at the door Jesus spoke of, I think the light will dawn. If it doesn’t then my goose is cooked. I don’t think God is about leaving us in ignorance and misery, even though earlier today I was ranting and raving at God for what I perceived as pulling the rug out from under me. God knows what an absolute pain in the butt I can be. Like a two-year old yelling “No!” at her parents. Who the heck do I think I am anyway? Good thing I have forgiveness for my emotional outbursts. :)